It seems much easier to subside than subsist
When the daily struggles start taking a toll
I wish I could just ignore when fate comes knocking on my door
Its screams bringing out all my wounds in the open
Fate
Daydreams
“Write when the happiness strikes.” I have more than often used this line to describe my inspiration to write. I don’t know why but writing just humbles me down when I am brimming with overflowing emotions. Like it is the storehouse for all the excess things I am feeling and can’t handle. I am always thankful that I discovered this channel to release so much pressure I unnecessarily build upon myself. Maybe it is the pressure that expectations create when happiness strikes the door. Expectations to be even happier in the future. Or expectations that things will change for the better only. And I am the biggest daydreamer I have ever known. Maybe my circle is just too small. But I just need one word to build a whole cobweb of stories around it. You all must have guessed by all that talk about how I want to be when I grow old. I even daydream about old age. Sometimes there is too much rush in my head. Writing things down helps to somehow arrange that clutter. I haven’t realized any of my daydreams till now. Not completely. I don’t know if all the things that go around in my head will come true one day or not. But I hope I keep on dreaming about happier moments only.
Continue reading “Daydreams”Aging like a fine wine
Today I got to meet an amazing person. I have attended his webinars previously too and always have thought of him highly, but today was somewhat more inspiring. I think my mind is way too often influenced by the people I meet. I know this is how human beings typically behave. We all draw our inspiration from things going on around us. But I hope one day I become strong enough to gain control of my emotions up to a certain extent.
I hope I will be unbothered by the countless degrading remarks or my insecurities. I hope I will not fly too high with just one compliment. I know it’s great to feel that level of happiness from the smallest of gestures. But it also means that those small gestures can snatch away my happiness. It should be upon me to feel happy, not the environment I am living in. Of course, I would love to be amazed time and again by amazing things. But I want to keep that amazement within myself instead of those momentary peaks of happiness. Maybe I am getting too old to be thinking about all that. But recently I came to know the importance of continuity. I am more likely to act based on some momentary peaks of passion, doing whatever I feel like. But I got to know that if I try to do something with some discipline, much larger feats are achievable. And they will take me to whole different levels of emotions. Therefore, I am trying hard to bring some amount of discipline to my life.
Coming back to that amazing person, I think I am way too often amazed by older people. Maybe my perception of older people is wrong altogether. In my mind, I don’t expect too many aged people to be as welcoming and open to differences. Maybe I am too biased. I often wonder what I would be like when I get to that age. I hope I would be a person who radiates warmth, like the person I met today. I hope I would have the same amount of passion for learning. I hope it just grows day by day. Come to think of it, older people are more likely to be mature and knowledgeable just because of their invaluable experiences. And yet some people might think of them as a burden to society. I think they are the greatest assets. Of course, just old age doesn’t guarantee maturity. But if someone has survived so many years of life, I believe I can always learn a thing or two from them.
Inspiration
Inspiration is an amusing concept. I never knew I could get inspired from a tiny sparkle of light to think about moments of life and death. All of us find inspiration in a number of things.
Continue reading “Inspiration”Just random thoughts
We all can learn something from each person. Some people leave you with such a good impression that you strive to be like them as a grown up. On the other hand, some people are like the least desirable trait in your personality. Like it would be such a shame and failure as a human if we ever become like them. I wish everyone learnt their lessons wisely, then this world could have been a better place. I hope I never become like the people who consistently spread negativity instead of helping each other steer through the storms of life.
In this process, I came to know two things for sure. First I am really sensitive and emotional. And second I am much more stronger than everyone out there because of the first thing. Because if I can survive and rock everything without being competitive and selfish, just imagine what would happen if I let my emotions go.
I sometimes wish I were wind. I want to fly at such great speeds freely into the vast space and feel every leaf of every tree and give big hugs to all those giant trees. To thank them for standing tall and strong and just giving us things without taking anything. I want to shake away all their worries and make them dance freely.
One step at a time
As the saying goes,” good things take time”,they take lots and lots of efforts too. Sometimes we may try to put all the effort at the beginning only and then get exhausted to try further. So should we not give it our all and just stay in our comfort zone. I guess that’s not true either. So we should just try to give it our best everyday but should not expect to get results in the same proportions. Even if we are barely managing to keep things working, that’s half the job done. Step by step things will get better and just one step forward is enough for the day.
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