A cyclone of emotions rushing through my mind
Fairy lights always bring back memories of childhood. The good old times when I did not know that terms like environment friendly exist. I was always awestruck by the brilliance of the glittering lights which made everything seem beautiful. Now, I would give away every fairy light to just admire a sky full of stars.
Continue reading “Fairy lights are prettier in the dark”Maybe people change and they always will. Maybe your name will be excluded from their priorities even if you are the most important person to them now. It is really scary sometimes to think that I won’t be sharing my secrets and stories with them anymore. But one thing I learned from these heartbreaks is that I can’t hate people I loved.
So the best way out of all this is to only remember the beautiful memories and be happy. Obviously, nothing lasts forever but we can’t build relationships with an expiry date in mind. But when all your attempts to protect that beautiful relationship fail and it’s only hurting you, it’s better to just leave it as a happy memory. I had read these phrases several times but never understood why people do that. But when it all happened to me, I realized that some relationships are too beautiful to be destroyed by constant repairs to make them work.
Let them be!! Like those antique collections. Not functional but still a treasure. And as we all know those antique and vintage things cost a lot. I almost went broke trying to pay the cost of these beautiful memories. But still I can happily overlook it as I got such a treasure to keep.
Recently I read a book that said that universe wants to be noticed, that pain wants to be noticed.
But it failed to mention the reason. There is no doubt that I have asked the same question several times before too but I never found the right words. But when I found these words, I was awestruck by their beauty. It simply ended our quest to find all the answers to whatever happens around us.
Alas, the universe wants to be noticed. From my experience, when we wish to be noticed, we all do things which are beyond imagination. Sometimes we succeed in this wasteful practice and sometimes we do not. But nature is not us. The universe is not us. It is much more above us. It holds enormous amount of power, capabilities and everything which is far beyond our imagination. Maybe that is why, it is noticed. We are unable to turn a blind eye towards it. Even if we devote our entire lifetime to understand, notice and praise the beauty of universe, it will not be enough.
Still many breathtaking views will remain far beyond our reach, our time. This explains how small we are in front of nature. We cannot compete with it. But I think universe does not know it. Even without trying it will be noticed. The earth will be noticed. Because it is so beautiful.
Then here we come again to the same question, why does it want to be noticed. Maybe it is jealous of us. Because it is all alone, it cannot even communicate with us directly. We have companions, we have friends and we have families. The universe is unable to experience the beauty of these relationships. That is why from time to time, it shows its powers, takes away our people, to make us realize that it is here. It is continuously watching over us. It hears our laughter, it sees us crying.
Maybe the universe also wants that adrenaline rush which we feel when our favorite teams win. Maybe universe also wants to feel those butterflies in stomach which we feel in love. Maybe it also wants to feel that unbearable pain in chest which we feel on losing someone irreplaceable (whether fictional or real). That is why it competes because it does not know any other way. Because somehow we have those beautiful abilities.
But not only universe or nature wants to be noticed. Even though we are like a trace in front of universe, humans also have that desire to be noticed. Humans also compete with nature, against nature to prove their worth. This competition has continued since ages and look where we have come. But universe did not play tricks. It gave us so much that our entire lifetime fell short to collect the gifts. The only thing it took was time. Still we had much more things that universe did not have, but we became selfish.
We competed so hard to be noticed that we played dirty tricks. We used much more resources than we deserved. We were the ones that disturbed the balance. We should have let other candidates play too. But we humans took their resources. We continuously scarred the universe and forgot to give it the attention it deserved. But fellows, we forgot one thing. No matter how many advantages we have, they will eventually fall short in front of the universe.
Because we were always just a speck of dust. The universe found new ways. It discovered natural disasters, new diseases and much more. There is no doubt we cannot win this game because its developer itself is universe. It knows all those secret weapons and tricks. As we sit in the lockdown with nothing to do, we can do a task of utmost importance. Notice the universe. Give it the attention it deserves. Give it the care it deserves. Because at the end, it holds the most powerful weapon: time.
I cried so many times with this song as bgm.
Then why does it bring so much comfort to me. Maybe it’s like those bittersweet memories of childhood, where I got hurt but always had someone to comfort me. Maybe it’s like home. Like that comforting pat on the back which tells me everything is gonna be alright. I am happy that I can remember this beautiful song like this. Because when I was all alone crying, only it was there. My home away from home.
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