Daydreams

“Write when the happiness strikes.” I have more than often used this line to describe my inspiration to write. I don’t know why but writing just humbles me down when I am brimming with overflowing emotions. Like it is the storehouse for all the excess things I am feeling and can’t handle. I am always thankful that I discovered this channel to release so much pressure I unnecessarily build upon myself. Maybe it is the pressure that expectations create when happiness strikes the door. Expectations to be even happier in the future. Or expectations that things will change for the better only. And I am the biggest daydreamer I have ever known. Maybe my circle is just too small. But I just need one word to build a whole cobweb of stories around it. You all must have guessed by all that talk about how I want to be when I grow old. I even daydream about old age. Sometimes there is too much rush in my head. Writing things down helps to somehow arrange that clutter. I haven’t realized any of my daydreams till now. Not completely. I don’t know if all the things that go around in my head will come true one day or not. But I hope I keep on dreaming about happier moments only.

Today I am definitely the happiest I have ever been in the past couple of months. My efforts are finally bringing about some change. I gave two interviews in a day and both went wonderful. I don’t know if I should be happy now, but the thrill of daydreams coming true has sparked a bit of joy. I often daydreamed of being the confident and knowledgeable person that I was during the interviews today. So yes I am happy, but the results haven’t been confirmed just yet. I hope I get the job I wish for but why let this anxiety ruin this perfect moment? I can atleast celebrate that I became a better version of myself today. Maybe I was growing day by day but today it’s just more evident. I am happy that I learned something new and I am even more confident that I can do better in my life. So let’s celebrate small moments instead of big achievements. Because big achievements are just more visible than these moments. Like we can’t see the rainbow before that perfect moment; the rain has to clear up first. But the moisture it is leaving will surely adorn the sky at that perfect time.