Into the spotlight

I feel the jitters all too well
I fumble as I talk and stumble as I walk
I slow down to get a hold
My mind running faster than I could process
I seem to be flying these days
As every dream turns into reality
I am too afraid to disappoint
Pinpointed under all the attention
I just want to mix in the crowd
I know that’s cowardly
I know that the stars have finally aligned
And I am too afraid to accept
Everyone suddenly understands me
I speak their language now
It seems they all finally like me
Nodding of the heads gives me confidence
I deliver and deliver
But I want to have responses
And I see their hesitant faces
I can’t see their genuine smiles
Yeah some give me the loudest cheers
And backstage there is a whole family
But still, it feels too lonely
I figure out most still don’t understand me
I just misunderstood from all that nodding
Maybe that’s a given when you’re in the spotlight